Well I am writing a blog and in my mind right now have her picture. She, I have a million things in my mind about her but I just couldn't find the right words to describe it. Also to mention, I have a weak vocabulary. :p
So I will start with whatever comes in my mind. Please forgive me if I hurt you by means of this blog.
I never have given much importance to people in my life. I have tried, tried to make people happy by doing all those things that was under my will. Still I have felt the sense of discontent from the people I never wanted to part with. Maybe because I couldn't keep them happy enough or maybe because they took my incapability as my selfishness. Maybe this is the reason for my present state of a so called maniac. There are so many maybe's which we want to solve but half of us don't find the courage and other half don't find the successful path that leads to the feel of satisfaction. My reason for so many maybe's are that I never find the courage (or take it as my ego) to approach the people and question them that where did I go wrong? Maybe I don't want to hear about my drawbacks. Again a maybe!!
We are never aware of what is to come next in life. Tomorrow is a surprise for all. That surprise may be good or bad to all possible extents. One surprise was for me as well in form of her. She changed my life. My life seemed much brighter and much happier with her. What was she? An angel, just a kind-hearted girl or.. I am out of words. She is so happy all the time that people around her can't resist to be happy with her. But for me she was the reason for my joy. After her appearance in my life I could feel it to be more stable than before. It was like the 'Brownian motion' of life have changed to a 'straight line' path, constant and directed.
I have promised her a lot of things. Lot of things for tomorrow. And she also definitely would have lots of expectations from me. Will I be able to fulfill it? Will she understand that I am trying to keep my promises? Will she lose all hopes for me? A weird, cold, angry and painful thought spins in my mind and makes me dizzy and weaken my high spirit.
But then I realize that its the only thing she and I have got, HIGH SPIRIT. High spirit that everything will be fine as time passes and like the movies we too will have a happy ending.
I just demand one thing from god that it keeps her in a happy state like she has always wanted to be. Some people deserve to be happy, not because you care for them but because they think of others before they think of themselves.
So I will start with whatever comes in my mind. Please forgive me if I hurt you by means of this blog.
I never have given much importance to people in my life. I have tried, tried to make people happy by doing all those things that was under my will. Still I have felt the sense of discontent from the people I never wanted to part with. Maybe because I couldn't keep them happy enough or maybe because they took my incapability as my selfishness. Maybe this is the reason for my present state of a so called maniac. There are so many maybe's which we want to solve but half of us don't find the courage and other half don't find the successful path that leads to the feel of satisfaction. My reason for so many maybe's are that I never find the courage (or take it as my ego) to approach the people and question them that where did I go wrong? Maybe I don't want to hear about my drawbacks. Again a maybe!!
We are never aware of what is to come next in life. Tomorrow is a surprise for all. That surprise may be good or bad to all possible extents. One surprise was for me as well in form of her. She changed my life. My life seemed much brighter and much happier with her. What was she? An angel, just a kind-hearted girl or.. I am out of words. She is so happy all the time that people around her can't resist to be happy with her. But for me she was the reason for my joy. After her appearance in my life I could feel it to be more stable than before. It was like the 'Brownian motion' of life have changed to a 'straight line' path, constant and directed.
I have promised her a lot of things. Lot of things for tomorrow. And she also definitely would have lots of expectations from me. Will I be able to fulfill it? Will she understand that I am trying to keep my promises? Will she lose all hopes for me? A weird, cold, angry and painful thought spins in my mind and makes me dizzy and weaken my high spirit.
But then I realize that its the only thing she and I have got, HIGH SPIRIT. High spirit that everything will be fine as time passes and like the movies we too will have a happy ending.
I just demand one thing from god that it keeps her in a happy state like she has always wanted to be. Some people deserve to be happy, not because you care for them but because they think of others before they think of themselves.
"She's always there for me when I need her,
she's my best friend, she's my everything"
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